The old familiar sting
by: Sidni Carter

a river full of pain filled tears flowed down my hot anger filled face. the hurt that was inflicted upon me has sent me into a dark place. i feel there is nothing left for me. i gave my all to another and now, i have nothing. i have lived through the darkest hours..yes. but, i don't think i can deal, with another day of terror, of hatred, of disappointing existence. the thoughts of ending all of this, seems more appealing than it was to even start it. i feel that there will not be a time when i am myself again. for, without you, i should come to an end. i danced in the rain today. i felt the rush of god's wrath unleashed upon the earth and i knew then, i was doomed to be in everlasting fire, and death and the lowest possible worth. when i can become the individual that i strive to be, then i will be complete. i feel as if, when i'm with you that i am the number one person in the world. but the things you do, hurt me beyond any kind of recognition. it tears me up inside. like a candle burns hot and bright, my love for you will never die.